I'm struggling with feelings for my friend. It's really complicated because we "dated" for a year in middle school, but grew apart and didn't talk for a year after that. Then we became friends again and we have been for a few years. When we dated before, I was figuring out my sexuality and confused my platonic love for romantic feelings, and instead of telling me they didn't like me, they pretended they did, too. But now I really do like them, maybe even love them, and I don't know how to tell them because when I've complimented them in the past, they've said "exes for a reason." I saw them in person today for the 1st time in 2 months and they said something that was probably just a coincidence but is driving me insane. They said they want to date someone who's at least a little taller than them and a fantasy nerd. I am both of those things. I can't stop thinking about them and I can't tell if they like me or not. I'm really scared about ruining our friendship if it's not mutual.