me and my bf celebrated our first year annivasary kinda. i made him a card and he paid for our dinner but when i brought the card out he said "this is cute, but i didnt make you anything... im an asshole" and i know thats a joke and whatever and i laughed along, but idk, it feels like he doesnt even care and im appreciative of him taking us downtown and paying for dinner, all i wanted was even just a little note. after he read my note he said "i ditto everything you said" and idk that just hurt cause like i feel like there was no effort at all even in the moment. I want him to be more vulnerable but i feel like i cant ask him that because of how his childhood was or idk maybe he wouldnt even care. it makes me sad, but im taking it into account for the future of things. :(((