I wanna tear my vocal cords out so I would shut up for once. I hate how loud my voice is, I’m always yelling. Then when I’m upset I get quiet. Both versions of my voice piss people off, especially my mom. “Quit yelling!” “Speak louder, I can’t hear you!” I wish I was home so I could cut myself, it’s gen the only thing that makes me feel better. I try to do the rubber band thing (like when u put it on your wrist and then snap it instead of cutting) but it doesn’t work. I hate myself, why couldn’t today be a good day, it should have been a good day. I got my prints taken for some stuff, and bc it’s wasn’t in my city, we were in a larger city. Since we were in a larger city, my parents wanted to go to a restaurant, but I didn’t rlly like any of them and I don’t wanna deal with people. I made a fuss about it I think. My mom got upset. Now we’re just getting stupid fast food bc she’s hungry. I hate myself why couldn’t I just pick a fucking restaurant. Someone kill me now🙏