My voice is an illusion, nobody listens. "WhY aRe yoU So loUd???" BECAUSE NOBODY FUCKING LISTENS UNLESS I SCREAM. They just talk and talk and talk and I say one fucking word and suddenly I'm a ghost who doesn't need attention. "We love you so much." What did I say five seconds ago? Oh that's right, you don't know because you only listen to me when its convenient. Should I even say I love you back? Its not like you'd hear me. "You get everything you ask for." BECAUSE I ATTEMPTED SUICIDE DUMBASS. And that's not even true! I ask for something from the grocery store and it never comes, my siblings MENTION wanting something ONCE and suddenly its in our pantry. Like nobody gives a fuck about what I have to say. And while I've accepted that, it'd be nice to feel heard for once. Also, I haven't been able to tell anyone but guess what??? I'm three days clean from using ai chatbots!!! Yippeee:)