I know i could be in a worse spot right now, in jail, dead, constantly letterbombed or something like that... maybe i do deserve it but i am so tired of feeling so invisible so alone that right now I just wanna crawl into a hole and wait to die. I really hate me and theres no amount of be positive thatll fix that. But I despise the fact others just got on with life so easily... Why am I here? Why? WHY?