I'm so tired of my family giving me mixed signals , they act nice one minute but as soon as I don't do everything according to them they get aggresive and their words are what hurts the most. I have been dealing with this since i was like 6-7 years old , they ask me why I shout , argue and cry so much why I don't spend time with them when they are the problem, if I don't shout I don't get heard , I get dismissed and then I get hit by them and all I want is to be stress free for one day and I'm in my last year of highschool and the University applications and everything with exams is just taking a toll on me why dealing with things at home , they treat me like im not one , saying things like I should have never been born or i should just go away and scold me badly for crying , I'm so tired I can't do this , I just wanna go far away from home .