vent I get so fucking lonely sometimes. I have so many people that care about me in my life but i’m selfish so it doesn’t feel like enough. I feel happy because my meds force me to but deep down I know my real emotions are just sinking deep in my stomach where I can feel them but I can’t reach them. I can’t find that same fulfilling feeling that I had when I was with her. I can’t find someone that understands me as well as she did. I know I can’t get back together with her because that would do more harm than good to both of us. every time I try to find a new relationship it just fails because once I step out of my comfort zone people always realize that i’m not right for them. I don’t even know if I want to find someone new. it’ll end someday. I always say that the heartbreak was worth the memories but I think I might just be lying to myself. if I didn’t know what I was missing maybe I wouldn’t feel like this.