I hate the way I look so much. I have fibromyalgia and since it got bad I've gained 3 to 4 stone and I just think I look awful. I want so bad to go back to how I was before, but I really struggle with exercise due to pain and I try to manage my diet but I'm autistic so I don't have a huge variety of safe foods. It just feels so hopeless, I'm constantly thinking about how much I hate myself and I can't fix it. I've tried not eating and I've tried making myself vomit (I know I shouldn't but I've gotten to a dark place) but nothing helps.