A yearly festival I really love just ended and now I feel really low I met again some people I met last year at the festival and I was pleased to see they still remembered me and wanted me around their camp. it almost made me cry since I've always yearned for that big friend group that always does fun activities. I always thought it was too late for me, until they proved me wrong. And most especially I met someone (again) and this time things blurred between being strangers/ festival friends and something more. He says he's kind of involved with someone but I just can't believe everything we shared (even if it wasn't anything physical) was just because. we really connected spent everynight till morning talking and smoking under the stars. and for the first time in a long time I felt really understood and listened to without judgment. I was also finally able to look at someone in the eyes and feel they care about me. now all of this ends and I go back to my shitty life