I wish someone loved me and wanted to show me off and genuinely thought I was fun to hang out with. I'm a 19 year old virgin and people tell me to just wait, but I've been waiting my whole life. It sucks even more because I go to a huge college and people around me just seem to get what I can't have - like a reward for existing. I spent a lot of money on nice clothes this year, and I'm always trying to develop a personality and actually be fucking funny so I can have a chance. One of my deepest fears in life is never knowing what it's like to be someone's favorite person. I don't know why I have to try so hard. Or be patronized with "just wait" while it's effortless for everyone else who wants it.
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