ive always been really bad at letting people down like whenever someone would invite me somewhere i would say yes even if i dont want to go and i thought i was getting better at it i thought i was starting to get the hang of saying no but today i cancelled plans twice with two dif people and i feel HORRIBLE and yes part of it is because i had to tell them no but also bc ive realized im turning into a liar and i hate it like one of my friends asked why i had to cancel and i said i was grounded but im not im js so overwhelmed with everything this week and i didnt want to do anything but i panicked because i feel like thats not a valid excuse but i lied and i feel terrible and i think shes mad at me and im so scared like theres a pit in my stomach and my heart was beating so fast and im trying not to beat myself up for it but i feel like thats was genuinely so mean of me like i cancelled the day before and yeah it ws js a study date but id already postponed it a week ago and i feel so bad