I have nothing going on for myself, if I'm honest. I have no job; I hang out in my (disgusting) room daily, and I stopped going to high school in February of this year. I genuinely can not stand interacting with people and feeling as if I always have to put up a front to satisfy them. Worst part? I've lived with a severe roach infestation for ALL of my teenage years. Disgusting, I know. How do you think I feel about it? Do you know how embarrassing it is when a friend wants to visit and I have to say no? When I'm constantly worried about whether or not a bug has crawled into my bag and pray that it didn't get on someone? I would NEVER wish an infestation on anyone. I haven't been to a hospital or a dentist since I was a child, so I have no idea where that leaves me. I have no plans for the future, and neither did my parents. I wouldn't mind if I died in my sleep.