I just unscrewed the pencil sharpener and relapsed AGAIN. God, I'm such a fucking pathetic human being. Nothing even really happened to trigger it, I just wanted to feel something. I fucking hate myself for that. I'm such a horrible human being, I don't understand why anyone ever tries to understand or love me. I'm so fucking worthless. And the blood is seeping through my clothing. Great. If anything, I'll just blame it on my period.