I’m in an awful marriage, the loneliest I’ve ever felt and I’ve only had a couple of friends in life. He treats me so poorly and I’ve realized I’ve treated him poorly because of what he did to ruin our marriage. We are complete opposite and whatever he wants I don’t want. I can’t trust him. He lies to me. He goes behind my back. I can’t take it anymore. I feel defeated. We have a child together and I don’t know how I’m going to get myself together so our son doesn’t see me this way. He’s cheated on me going on onlyfans . Spent over 1000 dollars on subscriptions and couldn’t help me with my finances when I struggled for the basic needs for our family. He has been sending women money and won’t give me a dime even though I do work full time so I pay for most of my things but I don’t make as much as he does. So when my money runs and I don’t have enough he tells me I’m bad with my money when it call goes to the other half of the bills I have to pay. I’m so done!