It sucks when you want your friends to be near you but you don't want to be near them, somehow I attract people who I think care about me I don't know, and I can't even send a simple "hi" text back without my fingers trembling and my overthinking and I know it's affecting my life since one of my old group of friends is slowly drifting away from me although no one has said anything about me so maybe I am overthinking I don't know again I do try to see online if anyone feels like this (to at least get some comfort) but uh no one feel this way and I'm instead getting people's videos about "top ten worst friends to have" or "how to know when your friend is double sided" and genuinely makes me want to cry because I don't want to be a bad person I'm not a whore but I don't know what I'll do when school comes up maybe I'll just drift away or like just be even more terrible so I know for sure they hate me. man, this did not help holy