I feel like nobody talks about what its like being the 'gifted kid'. Because its so fucking exhausting. Ever since kindergarten my teachers always said I was 'gifted' and smarter than the other kids. How I miss elementary when it was all natural. I didn't have to try and constantly get praised by teachers and peers. It was bliss, I got all the attention and was known as the smart one. Soon enough in middle school I get all the hard classes and have to start putting some effort but its hard to because I never knew how to study or anything. I tell others I never study and just accel but in reality I'm staying up all night just to get an 100 in every class. I cry myself to sleep and even start cutting myself if I get any lower. I'm jealous of people who can just live their lives without worrying so much or being constantly pressured to succeed. Soon I burnout and instead of doing any actual work I just sit in my bed all fucking day being a useless piece of shit.