my parents never really encouraged being a christian, theyre parents do but they dont really believe in that stuff. a while back i went through a low point and i started practicing christianity, at least a little more than before. it really did seem to help me, and im so thankful. but now, a few months later, im just thinking about everything, how fucking terrible our world is, and how horrible humans can be, and like, theres no way there is a god. im sorry, but like, my grandparents always say "god planned out everything, he knows whats gonna happen, this was all his plan, blah blah blah", but like, why would god plan for humans to be so fucking horrible sometimes? and like, why would he purposefully make life harder for women? i never believed that adam and eve shit, about that damn apple, like, if "god loves us all equally" THEN WHY DIDNT HE MAKE US ALL FUCKING EQUAL?!?! im sorry, but i actually cant believe that shit. like idk what to do now, what to believe, but like, no way bro