I'm tired again for no reason.I mean, not exactly. Everything that used to cause me terrible pain isn't so bad anymore, even though it's still there, but I feel incredibly calm about it all. My mom is still the absolute worst, but I don't react to what she does anymore. I just feel empty and disgusted, and then I tell myself WHATEVER. My whole family makes me sick, but I don't think I hate or love them either. I don't know, it's all so strange. I laugh all the time, even though I know there's only a month left until school starts, and this is the most important year of my life. Either I get accepted to a university abroad (because I live in a horrible place) and escape this house, or I'll die of heartbreak. I have a headache all the time, EVERY SINGLE DAY, but that doesn't bother me much anymore either. I don't know what's wrong. I'm so confused and feel an emptiness I've never felt before, but I'm not even hopeless or sad. Thanks to anyone who read this NONSENSE