I hate myself. Im suffering from ed for 6 yesrs now. I hate every little thing about me and i have no one to talk to about it. My partner says that when im trying to talk about it eith them it makes them relaps and they feel bad. And im just piling it in myself, everytime i feel bad about me or anything really im just putting on a smile and acting as everyting is okay. We are supposed to go on holidays in few days, but i dont wang to go anymore. I hate thr idea of photos, of people seeing me, of puttinv on a swim suit. I hate it all. I cant even not go, I already paid for it. And worst part is that mg partner is already thinking where ti go next. Im so tired of everything. I dont reallh have anyone to talk to about it. I bearly have any friends bearly talk to people and im self concious all the time. I wish i could be rich and have money to geg doctors to fix me up