i hate myself because genuinely wtf is wrong w me. im a horrible person. i do self harm, i lie to other people watch them believe it and just so i can get a laugh out of it, i like to pull pranks and some go too far which make my friends pissed, and i laugh at other people's pain thats so fucking messed up idk wtf is wrong w me. and i can't stop lying and laughing because its like automatic or something and i hate myself so fucking much for it. and it hurts the most because my family and friends have done nothing but love me and i still do these stupid things to them. i just wanna die