I wished you liked me back. You’re so funny and talented and fun and weird and attractive and it sucks that im so far away. It sucks that I wanna die sm and im so ugly and fat and disgusting and I wouldn’t be good for you. I was so fucking stupid to think you liked me back. Every “I love you” and flirtatious joke abused my heart and I just can’t fucking take it. I want to hold your hand and hold you and go to your concerts and watch you play guitar and watch movies and paint and go on walks/bikerides ROMANTICALLY. I’m sick of all the back and forth but I just can’t let you go. Why do you hurt me like this? I’ve cut myself for you, i imagine you killing/hurting me all the time because YOU WONT LEAVE MY FUCKING BRAIN. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I FUCKING HATE YOU. YOU DONT TALK TO ME ANYMORE. WERE SUPPOSED TO TALK, ARENT WE BEST FRIENDS???IHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOU. but fuck, I love you. and you’ll never say that back in the way I want you to. im sorry 4 eyes.