i'm terrified. absolutely beyond terrified. ever since i was a kid i've wanted to be a doctor. even years later and knowing how long the road is, how stressed and exhausted i will be all the time, i still want to be a doctor. i don't have any problems with the school or my willpower or a fear of hard work. but the money. it always comes down to the money, dammit. i'm not rich, i can't even think to pay off 500k in debt that everyone's averaging now. and i'm still so young, i shouldn't be worrying about this at all, i should be studying right now but instead i'm freaking myself out over the absurd cost to become a doctor. i've looked into np and pa, still want to become a doctor. and i hate everything else, i've only ever liked medicine. oh boy what am i gonna do