I miss you. I forgot how it was like to miss someone so much. I try to not let it consume me but it’s hard. Why is it so hard? Every inch I have of you I cherish, I like you madly and I crave you. I thought distance would help but it only makes my heart grow fonder. The dreams haven’t ceased and you’re all I seem to want now days. It’s foolish you don’t care you don’t see and I can’t tell you. I really fucking like you and I miss you I miss being around you I miss hearing you laugh and talk about nerdy shit I miss joking with you and being close to you holding you kissing you what did I get myself into. I just wanted to have fun but I was too blind to see that this casual fling was something I couldn’t fit in too. I’m not casual I’m not nonchalant I’m one of the most chalant cheesy mf out there and here I am acting as if I don’t care but I care a lot more than you can think or ever know so much so it makes me sick or wanna cry because I just miss you so much and I can’t keep going