I fucked up. Again. I got into a argument with one of my friends friend. Well call my friend Lilly Nd her friend Jack. I got into a argument with Jack. I than called Jack ignorant to lily bc he wouldn't listen to me. She told Jack and she basically said I dug my own hole. Now I feel like shit for one talking about Jack and two for telling her. It broke my trust with her but now I have no trust with Jack. I hate that I did that. I struggle making friends for the start and now I lost the friends I made. And now I want to cut my self. I do. Really bad.