I've been fat for as long as i can remember but i never really knew i was fat up until around 3 years ago and since i've realised, its been all i can think about. Everyday, i have worse and worse thoughts about myself, my weight and even my looks are constantly weighing on my mind and negative thoughs consume me and im so scared one day i won't be able to handle it anymore. I've done everything i can, every diet, tried working out only to be frustrated with the lack of results, i've even turned to unhealthy habits like starving myself and throwing up yet im still unsatisfied. My parents are constatly telling me im gaining too much weight and im ugly whyilst my friends tell me im perfect but because of how lowly i think of myself i cant help but think they are lying to me. Ive recently gone back to self harming because theres been so much pressure on every aspect of my life and i dont think ill be here for much longer.