i want to go to a mental hospital i want to be alone i know how bad it is but im hurting so bad i cry so hard in the shower my lungs hurt my heart hurts and i feel weak i dont eat i dont have any motivation my family isnt there for me i am alone but my dad is already hospitalized and its scary because i know i need the psych i need something to help me otherwisss im scared ill bite the bullet and just take the pills and od