I'm genuinely having existential crisis issues atm. Technology and life is just scaring me. Being alive is making me anxious. Its just I feel so empty. So lonely. So fearful of the world around me. Like doesn't feel authentic what so ever. Atm I'm not going to school or have a job and maybe thats why? Maybe I'm being a home body. So its hard for me to get my mind off of things. But I'm scared and paranoid. Like I'm being watching through Technology and I just don't know what to do. Doomscrolling is never ending. I feel so empty and sad. And like that life has no meaning its just empty. Like overstimulating. I should be more productive but art has no heart anymore. My dreams of becoming an animator are hopeless with how dystopian everything feels. Should I live out in nature? Become a farmer or something? Should I have children to give me something to do? Work at a school to plan events? Go to church to be apart of a community? I just don't know. I'm terrified. Part 1?