Part 2 I love my family but I'm an awful family member and I'm not spending enough time with the people I love. I have no friends. Like no one in my life speaks to me like we are close anymore. When I seek guidance or just to have a voice to listen its like no one is there. Am I really that lonely? Is thats whats causing this crisis of existence for me? Is this why feeling any kind of emotion is overstimulating? Or why i feel empty? So much bad is happening to the world. I'm scared its just all gonna die all going to deteriorate. I can't say I love life to the fullest but I'm afraid of death even when I do think of it for myself. Is this why I need to go to church? That also gives me existential anxiety to think about God. Everything doesn't feel fine. I feel as though I need someone to cuddle with and be told that everything will be okay. But I do not have that atm. I'm so sad, empty, scared, lost. I feel as though I need help