I kinda feel like I'm not enough, like I'm some worthless kid. Im super hypersexual and I feel numb every time after I do "it", my ears ring, and I feel dizzy and empty, but chasing that high feels so good. But after it I feel worthless, like some fucking whore, and I always sexualize myself, always horny, having thoughts about my friends and family, it fucking sucks. And I feel like I'm detaching myself from my friends, like I'm losing them, one of my friends almost committed and I was to busy fuckin' around to care, I feel like a total piece of shit. I just want to die, I can't do this anymore, I just want everything to be okay, I don't want to feel empty every night while I state at the ceiling. My ED gets worse everyday, I don't eat, I cant, I don't eat unless I see my friends and I'm detaching myself from them, so I rarely do, I want to be loved, for someone to care, to hug me, to tell me its gonna be okay when I want to relapse, I want someone to kiss me when I need it. Help me.