im convinced high school is sending me into a spiral. im in my last year of school and ive absolutely hit rock bottom. ive struggled with depression and anxiety since i was like 10/11 but ive never had it be as bad as it is now and its fucking eating me alive. i just wish they offered more support for us or at least made school a little more adjustable especially now in year 12 when vce is biting us in the ass. im unscored and thinking of dropping a subject to do only 4, plus i see wellbeing twice a week so i kinda feel like im being "dramatic" or something but in all honesty im so fucking depressed. i am EXHAUSTED. i. need. a. break. im done with waking up at 5 o'clock every morning just to want to blow my shit off every fucking day for 6 hours straight. im done. i dont need to be living life in preparation for the "real world" when im only 18 and barely know what i want to do with myself anymore. im just done and so glad theres only 5 weeks left of this bullshit for good.