I have a nice family.. i guess and i have alot of 'friends' but not true ones. I wish i have Real friends who would stay and not get bore of me.. my parents expected me to have good grades and socialize.. its only little so why cant i give it to them? They gave born to an fucking loser like me, i hate this shit people are so fake and only need you for their shits. I hate socializing, hearing my parents laugh with other relatives makes me realize how much a burden i am, i feel like once i step outside my room and they saw me they'll immediately stop laughing.. in school everybody is shitty middle school is hell all i could think of is home, but home is also hell FUCK WHERE DO I EVEN GO?? i cant get up i cant help myself i cant do shit i fucking hate it here, school is shitty many assignments and problems.. i just wish i have some friends who could comfort me.. not making it about themselves or laughing it off.