I don’t think I could handle it too much. I feel like a burden to my parents. I feel like I keep stressing them out—even though I keep questioning myself if I did something wrong to them. I hate my situation right now, I always wanted to open up to my friends but im scared I’ll get judged and get called “overreacted”. I want to just disappear for them, I don’t want to live anymore. I am so tired. I’m not pretty, and smart. I feel so sorry for my boyfriend that he’s with someone that doesn’t match his standards. And im blaming myself for it. I wish that they can see what I’ve been going through, I don’t want to be bullied for being hopeless and weak.. but I am being bullied—especially when it comes to my appearance, oh how I wish I looked like my friends.. pretty, smart, and talented. I wish I was them. I wish I was in their situation. I just want to die.. no matter how painful it is, I just want to disappear.