I'm ashamed of every minor stupid mistake that I make. I'm ashamed of even talking in public because I know that I don't know what I'm talking about and I struggle to cope with uncertainty. I wish I was stronger, but being strong is so vague that it just turns into unnecessary punishment and more quiet quitting. I just don't trust myself to be smart or creative or to have any wit. I can't trust my own decisions, I feel that I'm both braindead and I have Alzheimers despite my youth.
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