I love my family and friends so much. I hate the fact that I need to mask myself as a good person in front of them. They do not know me completely, the friend who gives them life advices and their innocent sweet daughter is actually a mental wreck online. I don’t know how I mastered this, but the fact that I can stay calm and live a normal life because I don’t let online delusions and drama affect my real life is insane or maybe I try to portray myself as a perfect person so they don’t know how eccentric I could get :/