i hope my friends still like me. i wish i didnt have to rely on flakey people for transportation. fuck. im so fucking broke. if i had even just $60 i could secure a room for one night and stop stressing everyone out. my girlfriend is in residential and im at home living with her extremely abusive parents. today she visited and everything blew up. lots of lies, lots of threats and yelling. financial blackmail too. they think im stealing their daughter. im just a kid. i miss her so much. we’re trying to escape to her grandparents (who love us, thankfully) so i have to stress about that too. theyre so old… i dont know if theyll take us. i dont know what to do. i just wish everything would just slow down. i cant keep up. i’ve never been so high strung before. please god. i just want everything to go okay. i just want everything to be okay in the end. i just want to live