its genuinly worthless lately, anything i eat feels SO disgusting when i look towards a mirror, even if i know i cant do anything with the weight gain i had. My periods are so bad i couldnt do anything but go on birthcontrol to manage the pain at the mere age of eleven, leading me to gain over 15kg when i was once healthy weight, now i wear size 36 trousers, M/L shirts instead of 32 and S like the others near me. none of my friends are overweight like i am. Boys have noticed it too, last year at the fair, a friend and me got called boyfriend and girlfriend by classmates of him, then when he said i wasnt his girlfriend they laughed. They didnt laugh because it was funny, no, rather they followed it up with that i couldnt be because i was too ugly, too much of a fat pig. My chest is too big too, it takes up space in shirts that i couldve worn as an S, my hips and thighs take up the space that could allow me to wear smaller trousers. ive been unable to lose the weight, my hope is dying rn