I miss her so much. Im so mad at myself for saying no to hanging out with her, but i’m just not in a good headspace and i feel like i might crack and spill all my feelings for her, and that can’t happen. because we’re both girls, and because she has a boyfriend she’s happy with. she has no idea I even feel that way for her and I feel I don’t even want her to know, i never want her to know. i want her to be happy, and i know she is with her boyfriend so i will let her be and just admire her beauty from a distance. she has beautiful sun-kissed brown eyes, soft pink lips, a perfect button nose, her eyes crinkle up when she smiles, her smile is so endearing, long, silky hair that shimmers in the sun. she is just so perfect. she has such a kind heart, she’s always there for me and her other close friends, she’s so funny, and her weird sense of humor is cute to me, But i have to knock this off, it’s not right. I’m not sure what to do.