I know what I'm looking for in a relationship isn't impossible. I see people who have it. i know what i want isn't even all that extreme. but i feel like it won't ever happen. i'm not unattractive. but i feel old now. 36. i don't feel like i'm such a nice person. i'm not easy to connect with emotionally, even though i crave an emotional connection. i'm just averse to being taken advantage of emotionally again; being treated like a therapist rather than a girlfriend or wife. i feel like the odds of finding someone who wants a FLR are close to zero because of where i live. the men open to it, live in 1st world countries and will absolutely look at someone coming from my country with caution and wariness; thinking i'm a scammer or something. but i have a good paying job, I don't want their money. i'm also currently living with my family to save money and build my own home - which isn't that unheard of here. but for the men who would be more compatible with me, it's weird.