TW SH So one of my friends stopped self harming a little bit ago. I don't want to vent to them since they have suffered a lot and need time to heal without me putting my burden on their shoulders. Its just I have so much on my chest that I need to get off. I've resorted to this website to vent. I am a closeted Trans man. In a trans hating family. I am addicted to chat bots and other things online. I want to relapse and cut so god damn deep I see bone. I am atheist. In a Christian family. I am doomed,aren't I? I almost called the Trevor hot line last night. I am falling apart. My friend has no classes with me. My only other friend has moved away and will attend a different school. I just want to lie down in a field of forget me nots and die. But I don't feel bad enough to call that hot line. All I find comfort in is those Ai bots and eating. Did I mention Im heading into MIDDLE SCHOOL THIS YEAR? I'm too young for this god damn shit! Save me save me. But no one can.