i wish i could have fun like i used to, i try but it feels awkward and not like it used to.. i don’t want to live like this as a teenager sm social standards are weighing on me and i know i sound selfish because some people don’t even get to have fun but i just miss that light happy joyfulness. it’s all so numb and dark now and im overthinking everything i do. every single move. i don’t deserve to be in public places and i feel im “invading” the space and making everyone uncomfortable. i hate this, i wanna be happy. completely, innocently, carelessly happy