I don't understand how people say god puts people into your life for a reason, then why did he put someone in my life who tried to sex traffic me, or every guy who I've dated has just been lustful towards me. It makes me feel sick. I hate everything lustful but every guy I've dated it ends up being all they want and I just want someone who wants me for me, I get I'm 16 and maybe I'm just not understanding anything, but I'm starting to stray away from Christianity. It has gotten to the point if god gives me people and can control things why does he give me people who try to sex traffic me and make me feel like/tell me i should SH/Kms. I want to feel not like just a piece of meat that guys want to throw around then leave out to rot. I want to not be anxious, I want to not feel sick and sad all the time. I want to feel at peace and happy again. Maybe he is trying to teach me a lesson but i dont know what i did to deserve any of it.