I never used to understand why people self harmed and wanted to kill themselves, but lately things have been getting so bad it’s all I can think about, and I feel even worse cause I know I would never actually end it because I’m too scared it would hurt my mum. I have the urge to cut every night but I’ve been clean for 2 or 3 weeks and I don’t want to relapse but I do so bad. In the past 2 months my entire life has fallen apart, my gf of 9 months left me the same day we put my dog of 14 years down, I can’t sleep I can’t function without my vape nothing seems worth it and I can’t even make myself get out of bed in the morning cause there’s nothing to look forward to. I hate this so much
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