I want to be able to go to school like everyone else. I can’t wake up, I can’t function all day, I can’t make friends, I can’t turn in all of my work, I can’t exist in my body around all of those other people existing as well. I dont know why it’s so fucking hard for me. I can’t do anything, I can’t be a person I want to be a person who does normal person stuff but I can’t. I feel like an alien cosplaying as a person. If I make any friends I don’t click with them or I don’t feel comfortable or understood. I’m so uncomfortable in living that I can’t have any people in my life and it makes me so lonely. I’m so lonely somedays I can’t take it, I text the friends I have and they are busy. Or I feel like I say something weird when I call them. I want to be normal and accepted and like I know what I’m doing.