I once had a really close friend who made a post about me. I hated them for a long time throughout school. I've grown up matured and changed but that post still lingers in my mind. It scares me a lot. I still question if I'm a good person even though I've genuinely changed and everyone around me has said the same thing. I'm still scared I'm gonna loose all my friends again. When the whole thing happened I ended up loosing my mind a bit. I think about it every single day still. I worry that everyone I know will suddenly hate me one day like before. I don't make close friendships anymore, I don't like to let people see beyond the surface level because what if they hate what they rlly see. I want to reach out but I don't want to go back to having panic attacks when I wake up in the morning. It got really bad throughout highschool. I got reminded of them recently. I hope their doing good, I don't hate them anymore. We were both just kids. I'd still like to say sorry for how I was.