I'm so fucking useless. If I were to die right here, right now, I don't think anyone would even notice for a day, and when they did? It'd be a huge relief off their shoulders. I can't talk to anyone about crying, or my words getting stuck in my throat just for me to say "never mind". it's rotting within my chest and I don't know how long I can take it, take the thought of me being better off dead in a ditch somewhere until I actually do something about it.