I wanna cry right now. I wanna scream. I want to throw things while crying. I wanna be miserable. I want to be sad. For some people, doing these kind of habit whenever something doesn’t go the way they wanted to be, they just do this. They cry. They let their emotions win over them. It’s hard, and felt so heavy, I could at least tell that. I noticed this when I was scrolling and most of the gen z now let their emotions out through this and I also want to try this method. The thing is, I can’t. My body won’t allow me which makes me even more miserable. I want to cry. I want to sobbed loudly and visibly. But why is it that my body won’t allow me? Whenever I am feeling sad or depressed, the feeling of “You’re not allowed to cry. You’re not allowed to be sad. You’re not allowed to be weak” suddenly hits me. Day by day, I got even more miserable. I am neither happy nor sad, I am just feeling empty, like a shell. Why is it always like this? Please, let me cry.