I feel like lately you haven't been as kind to me and it really hurts. And I don't think its ever going to change. You were nicer and more caring to me when you were controlling and obsessive. I' tired of feeling like I'm begging to be cared for. I'm so tired of crying in silence because you make me afraid to say how I feel in fear that I'll just be a hassle to you. I'm so tired of constantly feeling like a burden whilst constantly taking on 90% of the mental load. I'm so tired so constantly asking to be loved. The reason why I'm always begging you to come to bed is because I feel like thats the only time I actually get to have real one on one time with you. But I guess even thats too much to ask for. I'm so tired. I just want it all to stop. I just want to be cared for the way I care about you... it hurts. So bad. My heart physically hurts. It hurts even more when I'm crying and you know I am but you do nothing to help. The old you used to say that you hated the thought of me crying.