Idk why, but everything is starting to lose its spark. A year ago, I told myself that I’d go pro in hockey, that I’d play in the PWHL, be a star. But now even my most loved hobby is starting to grow full and grey. Idk how to explain it, but I feel like things would be better if I just..stopped existing one day, yk? Like, if I were dead, all my problems would be solved, in fact, they’d be nonexistent. But I can’t bring myself to kill myself, because of how scared I am too. None of my friends know, they all struggle with their own lives and thoughts, and I’m tired of being the person that they always lean on. I want someone to lean on, and I dont have that. I’m just so tired of my life. Ugh. I’m srsly thinking of just ending it all soon. I’ve given up hope.