I'm so tired of being hated. I can't really say I'm being bullied since my classmates just ignore me 90% of the time, though sometimes they throw stuff or mock/laugh at me. I would give anything to have at least one friend, but since my reputation sucks they get embarrassed to be seen with me. My last friend joined in on the mocking and made fun of me so she'd stay "cool" but hung out with me in private, I didn't mind, though it hurt my feelings, she still enjoyed hanging out with me. But after that year she never spoke to me again. My family loves to make fun of me too, I thought people being mean to you your whole life made you desensitized but it feels like I'm just getting more sensitive. I'd ask for a friend who won't mock me but it'll be an impossible miracle if I even get a friend in the first place. I just want to laugh, chat, and hang out like normal people do but I can't. Am I an alien? Did I do something wrong? Please, stop hating me, I can't take it anymore.