he is one of the most important people in my life. we've known each other for five years, we've been friends for the better part of a year now too, and i cannot read him for the life of me. i love talking to him, i love playing video games with him for hours on end, i love hangning out and seeing him at work. i want to date, i want to spend time together, i want him. i have no idea if he likes me back, yet i have friends telling me he does. we make plans sometimes, we have been to each others houses one on one. we have laughed and vented and raged. i just want a sign, some kind of flag flying in the wind telling me to go for it. he's my coworker, there's so much risk involved but the reward would be so sweet. i just want to know if i'm grasping at thin air or if i'm reaching for his hand. i'm so afraid to take that risk, but for him i think i would risk everything. im so angry that i don't have clear answers. i wish i could peer into his sweet, quiet mind.